Early last week, my mom told me that a little girl we know through church was "preparing for heaven." Remarkably, those are the little girl's own words. She has never been afraid of her impending death since being diagnosed with a brain tumor just over a year ago because she was excited to "finally be going home."
Trinity, that faithful little girl, passed away last night. I can't say that I have any idea how it would feel to be facing the end of your life here on earth. But I do believe in heaven and I believe Trinity is there now, dancing amongst the other angels who I also believe are in heaven with her. And, afterall, the Bible implies that all children go to heaven. (See, Mark 10:14, amongst other places.) My own ability to be sure of what I hope for, and certain of what I do not see, lessens the resounding sadness I feel for the littles I have known and lost only a little, but enough that I can muster a smile in my heart when I picture Trinity now with the happy smile her tumor had taken away. I'd like to say I will have the grace, peace and glory Trinity demonstrated during her final days. I am likely praying for such strength in church right now as you read this post. Not just because I feel such a prayer is an appropriate prayer but because death is something that bothers me in general. Umm... I know this bothers probably everyone but I worry I am bothered by it more than most, says the girl with anxiety over many things. In true Lisamarie fashion, I watched the movie, My Life Without Me, last night (after the Notre Dame game, of course) just to ensure I was feeling as sad as possible. I don't know why I inflict pain on myself like that. FYI: don't watch that movie if you are already sad about anything. And FYI: Its a movie with a very non-religious outlook on death play by, not surprisingly, an athiest actress.
In one last act of earthly inspiration, Trinity was so kind to leave us all a short little note that I encourage you to check out if you are a believer in God or if you are merely intersted in reading the final thoughts of a ten year old girl: http://prayfortrinity.com/2012/11/24/in-glory/.
So this past week, as I worried about Trinity, I worried less about work and burdensome obligations (which were/are truly overcoming me), and spent a little extra time talking to my mom, laughing with my sister, snuggling with my favorite guy, and being outside.
How do you like to spend your time when you are trying to savor it?
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I'm so sorry to hear about little Trinity, but I think you're right. She's in a happier place now. And that movie? I watched it about 8 or 9 years ago and I still to this day remember crying my eyes out in my bed while I watched. So moving and such an interesting take on death. Definitely worth the tears!
Oh boy! This post had me bawling this morning. What a brave little girl. Thank you for the perspective this morning. I needed it going into a busy week.
I read that note from her. How very sweet and positive.
wow...big sigh—such an inspirational little girl! but also so sad to hear about her passing. what a beautiful outlook.. thank you for sharing lisamarie. it really puts things in perspective. <3
ps—thanks for the movie warning!
This post hit unusually close to home- as one of the bravest little boys I know passed away yesterday at 11:25 p.m. after battling a brain tumor for two years. He was 10 years old and like your sweet and brave friend Trinity, was excited to see God and be with his heavenly Father. I will keep you, and Trinity's family and friends in my prayers as I am praying for Rex Fleming, his family, and his friends. These two have touched peoples heart and have acted with maturity beyond their years. I hope that when I'm facing the reality of leaving this earth, I am as brave as they.
You can read Rex's story here: http://www.reporternews.com/news/2012/nov/24/rex-fleming-abilene-family-tells-story-of-their/?partner=popular
Amazing how a 10 year old is more adult than most. This was beautiful.
So sorry to hear about that, but her courage and outlook are an inspiration. Makes me realize how short life really is.
Like you, I worry death bothers me more than most. I had a period where I couldn't watch any movies or shows where someone died. Trinity's note is very uplifting. I can't believe she had so much grace and peace as she faced death. It's really touching and comforting. I'm sure she's happy in heaven.
Unbelievably sweet...I can't imagine being so articulate at such a young age. And yes, it puts so many things into perspective!
What a remarkable little girl. Her parents I'm sure are very proud of her bravery and spirit.
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